hi

long time no post :D. for me, at least. very, very long time. but, anyway~!

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last Tuesday, we stepped it up with training. no, like, as in really stepped it up. as in omg i haven't been this sore since the very beginning when we first started and ow ow ow stepped it up. (well, that was after last Tuesday, at least, lol.) ^_^

and i...am kind of excited! in an optimistic-masochistic sorta way!

because, i mean, it must mean we're improving if Sham's making our sessions more difficult, right? right.

anyway, training is fun. you know. in the same way that tests are fun. you do the bulk of the work and preparation at home, then you show up on test day and get to see what you're made of, and you get that rush of accomplishment when you're all done!

plus, Sham brings these nifty little fitness toys to training that i probably would've just tried to eat if i'd encountered them on my own.

oh! speaking of our trainer! he is a very cool dude. Sham is positive, encouraging, and totally pro at what he does. he can do handstand push-ups, never gets angry, and he's awesome at getting back to you when you try to contact him.

Priscilla's already said that she's happy she found Sham and, i must say that...i'm happy she found Sham, too! lol

(i dunno if i ever explained before, but all this pt stuff started when Priscilla posted a craigslist ad way back in January for a workout partner that i eventually ended up replying to, and i had uber-doubts about everything in the beginning, and never guessed i'd become so fond of both of them.)

<3

-mc

thursday was delightful <3

it was like 'wheeeee!'-delightful.

for one, it was hella nice out <3. and i'm kind of in denial about spring being here, because i like winter's coldness and lack of allergies. but on thursday, it was sunny and not hot, and breezy but not annoying, and i took some allergy meds that work a lot better than the ones i used to take.

for two, it seems i have lost another 6 pounds.

6 pounds.

6 pounds.

6 pounds <3.

so, i currently weigh a jolly 134.

...and maybe a half, too, but i forgot whether or not we decided to keep it or not, lol. i also forgot the exact numbers to the other measurements we took (inches off the waist, etc), but i do know that a lot of the numbers went down. plus, body-mass-index wise, i finally count as a normal person! simple things, really; but i was so happy~.

and relieved.

especially since i've been kinda terrible with my eating/exercise habits lately. um, oops?

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after the weighing, Sham deemed the time fit that he give me a certain revelation:

apparently, these first 10 pounds are the easiest to lose.

and...that pretty much translates into 'stop jimmy-jacking around, dude, cuz the real work starts here'. oy vey.

and then, Priscilla arrived and we did training, which Sham wrapped up in the end by having us play tag, pretty much.

yeah XD. no joke. we probably looked silly, but it was a lot of fun~! i got Priscilla the first time (she had to do 10 push-ups), and then she got me the second time (i had to do 12 sit-ups), and then i got her again the third time (she had to do 12 sit-ups and 10 push-ups!).

so, yeah.

thursday.

delightful <3.

-mc

i'm quitting training.

Ever felt like one day, you can do absolutely anything? Like you can take on the world with your bare hands, no gloves, fight tooth 'n' nail, and who cares if the odds are one to a million, because you have drive, dammit.

And then in a single moment, everything crashes inwards, crumpling in on itself, in on you, trapping you, entombing you alive, and you're stuck there. Left to die in the debris.

The stronger ones can dig themselves out of heap; they start anew and rebuild, and are able to take off running headlong back in the fray. Then, there are the weak ones. There's me.

Ever since training started, I've always asked myself, "Can I do this? Can I really do this???"

Well, today, I've realized the answer. I can't do this. It's too much for me. If that means I'm weak, then I'm weak, but I can't keep doing this.

Maybe some people can, but I can't.

I can't.

I quit.

!!! APRIL FOOLS !!!

XD

okay, first of all, yeah the frick right.

oh, wow~ *snort* i'm pretty sure this isn't what Sham wanted when he reminded us to update our blogs, but i just had to, hahaha.

i'm seriously hoping i was able to gaslight at least a couple people with that; april fools gags get trickier to pull each year, don'cha know. LOL

but, yeah. no way in hell am i quitting that easily. smack me if i do. i'm in for the long haul, guys. there's no such thing as 'impossible', just a matter of how much you're willing to commit yourself, that's all. training's probably the best choice i've made in my life. and tomorrow, i'll have real news fersure.

because tomorrow, we weigh in.

*is nervous...BUT NOT ENOUGH TO QUIT, JUST SAYIN'*

-mc