cookie-fasting starts NOW, dammit!

i've decided to do a cookie-fast! no cookies anymore, whatsoever. i don't care what my tongue or my stomach tell me. they lie.

the reason behind this fast: i fail at sit-ups. 'nuff said.

um...that's just about all i have to say for now. and anything i mention about training on Thursday would just repeat a post Priscilla already made. so, just to make said fitness partner giggle or something when she reads this, here's a list of Sham-quotes.

[Sham-quote (n.) : something that our trainer tends to say a lot during training.]

---The List!---

"Get that heart rate up." (also: "Keep that heart rate up!")

"Remember: perfect posture."

"Remember your checkpoints: toes pointed, gluts flexed, abs tight, shoulders back and relaxed..."

"Drive it up!"

"Keep moving, keep moving." (also: "Keep going, keep going.")

"Keep it up, keep it up!"

"Ten more, ten more..." (or: whatever number he replaces 'ten' with.)

"Give me ten more." (or: same explanation as above.)

"Fight it, fight it!"

"I know you're getting tired, but you have to keep moving!"

"Remember why you're doing this."

"That fat isn't gonna burn itself."

"You can do it."

"You're almost done! Finish strong!"

"...And...you can relax."

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i swear there's more XD. i'll keep adding to it.

so, if you train with Sham, you can listen for these and play bingo in your head during training or something. ...when you're not focused on your shaking muscles or gasping for breath, that is.

you will hear them. not only when you train with Sham, but when you exercise on your own too. you'll hear their echoes o_o.

-mc

do not want huge pants.

uncle: Here, Kitty, try on these pants.
me: ...Um...no, thank you.
uncle: Why? They'll fit you. They're huge.
me: AAAAAAAAAAUUUUUUUUUGGGGGGGHHH.

nothing better to get me to do my core for the day than an unintended insult.

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on Tuesday, Sham changed up my at-home exercises a bit. y'know, to make sure i keep losing those unwanted extra pounds 'n' all.

basically, he set a bar for me to reach for the second time i'd cycle through my core, and also increased how many of the CET ones i'd do. (i still need to ask what CET stands for, now that i think about it....) and i am also no longer doing crunches; it's full-out sit-ups from here on out, son.

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so, i think the most "difficult" thing about doing these exercises is getting off my lazy ass to do 'em. but usually, all i have to do is remember why i need to do them in order to get me motivated, as well as keep in mind how much nicer i feel about myself after completing said exercises. like i've worked hard to accomplish something.

truth be told, stuffing myself silly with cookies and milk makes me feel just as happy with life, but that's an empty satisfaction. i'm not working for anything, and get no benefits other than the fleeting sense of an elated mood.


...yeah, i did another cookie binge today D:. I KNOW I HAVE PROBLEMS WITH SELF CONTROL, BUT I'M WORKING ON IT, OKAY?

-mc

because when you're hungry, healthy food tastes just as good as bad food.

uncle: "Where did you go?"
me: "I borrowed the pressure cooker from Gina!"
uncle: "...That's not a pressure cooker. That's a slow cooker."
me: "Aren't they the same thing?"
uncle: "No."
me: D:

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so, the benefits of this pt stuff are pretty much almost countless. they also include the fact that i'm learning how to cook :D!

once upon a time, my cooking skills were limited to top ramen and frozen dinners.

now, i can prepare mushrooms, egg whites, oatmeal, brown rice, corn, and i'm currently in the process of figuring out how to do beans. all by myself. (YAH, I HEAR THE CHEFS OUT THERE LAUGHING AT ME. BABY STEPS, OKAY? BABY STEPS.)

after that, i'll get onto doing seafoods and such. cuz the canned tuna just ain't doin' it for me anymore. sorry, canned tuna. i'm moving onto bigger and better things, since there are plenty of fish in the sea. AH HA HA...ha...

...yeah.

i've been meaning to learn how to cook, anyway. it's an important life skill. and once i'm out on my own, i can't go back to food that comes out of boxes and cans.

-mc

(c'mon. "plenty of fish in the sea". cuz it's tuna. just admit it was clever!)

oh, no... D:

last night = unhealthiest night EVAR. yeah, not just "ever". evAR!!!

i ate a burger and fries last night. GAHHHhh.... and, okay, some people might say, "oh, that's not too bad", but i know my body and i know...that it will do very bad things with that burger and fries! WE'RE SUPPOSED TO MEASURE IN ON TUESDAY. NOOOOOO......!!!!

long-winded excuse reason: unexpected trip to the ER after work left me without food for eight hours, until my cousin came along and dropped the fast food meal by me, saying that it was better than nothing, and that was true enough, and at least i had water with it instead of soda.... but then that night, i had to wake up every two hours to check my aunt's blood sugar, and since it always takes me about an hour to fall asleep, i had---more or less---four total hours of sleep last night.

yerrrgh x___X;;;.... yeah, last night was crazy times.

definitely need to go on a jog. isn't it funny how paranoid i am now? you are free to lock me up in a mental institute if i ever start saying things like "I CAN FEEL MY FAT GROWING THICKER AROUND MEEEEheeee...".

my aunt's just fine, though~.

-mc

laughter of the annoying kind

i finally went out to buy mushrooms (yay!), cheese, brown rice, and bananas in order to eat something besides apples, tuna, and potatoes for the next few days.

came home and got laughed at by my fam. D:

whatever, though. i'm becoming healthy. and once i lose weight and get all these job opportunities thanks to our shallow society, i'll be the one laughing.

they still don't even know that i have a trainer. which they'd be very angry about. (i'm really in no position to be spending money.) but i've no doubt that Sham is worth every penny; i've heard what he can do from Priscilla. plus, not only is my money in it, but i have the two aforementioned persons eyeing my progress; and that especially makes me wanna keep in line.

i'm already slimming down. i now fit into the pants that i haven't been able to fit into since my sophomore year in high school. the only place where they cling are the hips. they used to be tight on the entire upper-leg area! how's that for progress? buh-ZAMM.

-mc

omg. difficult not to eat the bad things.

especially when they're placed in front of you, colored bright and blaring---a seductive offering. but if you were to indulge, it would unleash its true, rogue nature from within. exactly like the Trojan Horse.

this is me being poetic about junk food, hi.

but, yeah. someone brought cookies for my five-hour film class last night, and i almost gave myself a hernia in my efforts to resist. but i made it through the night, sipping on water and feeding on a turkey sandwich.

now i feel even worse for Priscilla; she goes through work with bad foods paraded around her all day!

at the same time, i'm really glad it's not me.

-mc

eating

the first thing Sham ever taught me was how to eat right.

him, Priscilla, 'n' me sat outside the Barnes&Noble cafe, and all the information came in lecture-form. and no matter how interested you could be in a topic, it's difficult to retain all info you get via lecture, so luckily he gave me some papers that had the eating guidelines on them, as well as "Sham's Healthy Food List". (no, seriously, it's actually titled that.)

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so far, i've remained pretty loyal to eating only the foods on the List. really, the main reason i ate what i used to eat was cuz it was easy to make, or it was just there. you know, stuff like top ramen, or pastaroni.... yeah, i'm craving them now. every time i think about them, actually.

but actually, i'm pretty good at staying away from them so long as they're out of my sight.

otherwise, i relapse and shit happens. like that time when i spotted a cookie package on the counter and.... well, if you could imagine the way a lion catches an antelope...yeah. pretty much. my name is Michelle-Casey and i am addicted to food, haha. i told Priscilla how Sham was gonna crucify me to a treadmill or something, but he basically just reminded me to "earn, not take".

...now that i think about it, i ate three pancakes today. dammit.

okay, so i obviously don't have a perfect score with eating, but i'm really just proud that i've strayed so few times and haven't lied on my food log. oh, yeah, we keep a food log. it helps keep us in check.

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another thing, another thing~

WATER. i have to drink 96 ounces of water per day.

...well, i'm getting there at least.

i've gotten up to 64 ounces, and i think that's something. at least, for someone who was living off Arizona Tea three weeks ago (i never even drank that much Arizona Tea in a day!). sure, maybe i'm taking too long, but i also used to think water was disgusting. and, yeah, i still have trouble drinking it, but it helps to drink it while stressed rather than reach for the nearest cookie or cigarette.

the only problem is the fact that i have to pee all the time. kinda interrupts my work, since i'll have to go up to two to three hours with no toilets nearby (when you drink this much water, you have to go ALL the time).

but on the bright side, my urine's never been clearer. ...tmi?


-mc